'What are you up to?’ Well... Actually 'nothing'
sounds so good.
“I've never been lonely. I've been in a room --
I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all --
but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was
bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other
words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've
always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a
stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness.
I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone." I've never
thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and give me a
fuck-job, rub my balls, and I'll feel good." No, that won't help. You know
the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you going to do? Just
sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity.
Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I've
never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars,
because I didn't want to hide in factories. That's all. Sorry for all the
millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of
entertainment I have. Let's drink more wine!”
(Charles Bukowski)
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